2014 started in confusion as I was dealing with the loss of a miscarriage. Not even a week later, my uncle died unexpectedly after surgery so 2014 was not starting out well. I remember talking with my cousin and crying over her father and then when I told her about the baby, we cried even more. Life was just not making sense and 2014 was not off to a good start.

I teach at a university and school was starting back the next week. I was still confused on whether I should tell people and I finally did tell a few close co-workers but that was about it. Again, I’m not sure why I didn’t want to tell anyone about what I was going through.

I prayed every day that God would give us another baby. Each month, when my period began, I knew it was another month without a baby. I tried not to focus on it but I couldn’t help it. I tried taking my mind off of it but then everyone around me was announcing their pregnancy. I just prayed that God would reveal His plan because I didn’t understand.

2014 came and went and I wasn’t pregnant. I kept praying that God would bless us with another baby but I knew had to be patient – which is very hard to do! It’s much easier said than done…..