April 2015

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So, 2014 came and went and no baby. I was quite confused because I never had problems getting pregnant. I felt like the clock was ticking because I wasn’t getting any younger. I started wondering if being pregnant was ever going to happen again. Then, I felt guilty for not being content – I already had 3 precious, healthy children – why did I need more? I love my children more than anything in this world and I just wanted one more…

I teach at a university and the spring semester was coming to a close. In April, my chest started hurting and I decided to see a doctor. She did a regular pap smear and other tests but everything seemed normal. She advised me to set up a mammogram (yes, I was at the age that I needed to start thinking more about those) so I had it scheduled for the first week of May.

As April was coming to a close, I had been so busy that I hadn’t even noticed that I didn’t have my period. My periods were pretty irregular so I didn’t even want to get my hopes up. I decided to take a pregnancy test just to check. I about fainted when I saw the sign for PREGNANT!

My emotions kicked into high gear. I was so excited but also so nervous because of my miscarriage. I knew that I only wanted my husband and kids to know at first. We had a trip planned to Disney World at the end of May to celebrate my mom’s 60th birthday. I was trying to think of something creative to share our news with our family at that time because we would all be together.

My mind was racing but I was so ready for this journey……

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